I am certain that I said there would be no whine here. but I was wrong. For tonight I need to put a bit here. Why it must be here, I can not say. There are other choices, but this feels the right place to write to night. It is like something is telling me to post here not there. even though LJ would be the best choice. then again, as it is not overly whiny it could go to myspace. but myspace is less safe. but that would not matter with this post. it is not a sensitive one. Just have to watch my mouth over there since I told on my self. lol Not that she would read anything. but there is the chance, and there is enough tears as there is. thank God we will be getting a bit of space in a few weeks. that is unless things change. Of course this is not so free ether, it could be found easy, so not all will be said. Any way on to the reason for this post.
So I was wondering how many get hung up in the past? That is to say, (This is the whine I was talking about.) how many can not let their mistakes go? I know I can't. I think I have but, it seems I have laid it to rest. But each little thing seems to come back to hunt me at the silliest of times. It is non since. the past is the past, what is done can't be undone. but at times I wish it could. There seems to be so much I would do different I had a chance. Or there does now. But if I went back I don't know that would truly do much different. yes I know that makes no since, but that is the way it is.
there is one thing I would do if I could go back. I would tell my self to study harder, learn more. that I would change. All the time I wasted. But more than that, I think I would let things stand, as unhappy as it may be in the end, it is what made me what I am.
Good night world, good dreams to you my imaginary reader.
